Back to School

August’s hot days and weeks are behind me now. Our air conditioning system is running less frequently as uncomfortable days from high temperatures are slowly making room for cooler mornings…another blanket on the bed at night…cozy slippers for chilly feet upon waking and crawling out of bed….it’s the third week of a new school year for most of our children–Phew!–I know of some who began their new grades in late August…at any rate, each year when kids return to school I, too, feel a “shift” in my emotions and thoughts…almost as though I will get to experience something new and exciting like a brand new school year!

Our oldest granddaughter has entered second grade. She loves school and takes each day very seriously. Unlike her gramma, she embraces math…like me she is excited to explore learning through science and social studies. Being in the gym or playground is on her top list because she loves to run, climb, and do endless cartwheels as she bounces across any surface with ease. As much as she likes school and doesn’t argue about getting up in the morning, she has admitted to her parents that second grade is “stressterating” (her own combination of stressful and frustrating)…it’s evident that everything she mastered in first grade is now being challenged with building on her early foundations of learning. All of us–parents, grandparents, aunts and uncles, are assuring her that she will do well. We believe it and she does, too, now that nighttime prayers include speaking positive affirmations over her sleepy mind before laying her head on the pillow. “You are kind….you are a good learner….”

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When kids head back to school, I am reminded of something my mother once told me. She admitted that for the first few days all three of us kids had left for school, leaving her to an empty house, she felt lonely. I guess the chaos brought on by raising three growing noisy children…preparing endless meals including snacks, playing referee to childhood squabbles with neighbor kids….keeping track of everyone’s schedules left her with emotions of loneliness…perhaps a quiet home was too much too soon and  fed her feelings of missing us kids…now that I’ve had kids of my own…lived through their 12 years of education, I “get it”. What’s odd, though, is that our own children have been out of the house for awhile now…my own September lonely days without them are behind me, and yet, here…now…in the third week of September I have felt the return and effect of kids going back to school….I wonder why…

I truly have no idea why the experience of sending my kids back to school…and now, watching as our granddaughter walks that same path…soon to be followed by her younger brother and  few cousins less her age…evokes emotions that include surviving the heat of July and August to finding ways to occupy my time in the cooler days ushered in by September. Maybe the mere process of recognizing the “shift” is all part of a grand plan to keep me aware of each day’s opportunities for living life and fulfilling purpose…whether it’s waiting to hear a report on how second grade is going….being included in conversations about social studies or how many cartwheels were spun during recess.

Ya, August is behind us. We are living in September. Windows aren’t open as often. School doors have opened, welcoming back our precious babies who are eager to learn. Momma heartstrings are being tugged at as kids leave each morning… noisy goodbyes leave homes  quieter now until the final bell at the end of the day…

The school bus doesn’t stop at our home any more. But it doesn’t mean that I don’t long for those days that are now a thing of the past…what it does mean, though, is that with the gift of four precious grandchildren to love now, while I may not be waving goodbye as the bus pulls away, my hands are now folded in prayer for them every morning,,, that they will be protected, be loved, be kind, embrace learning…and not get too “stressterated”.  And that any melancholy feelings of my own will soon disappear into the calendar of the new school year…

“Most” of my best material for writing each week comes from things that our grandkids say…anyone who’s been around a toddler knows that every conversation is bound to include a mispronounced word that makes us chuckle…or some profound truth their developing mind is putting together…discovering something “new” every day in nature and adding vocabulary words as language comes…

We have four grandchildren and each one is very unique–rightfully so–because that’s the nature of God. He created us to be individuals…not cookie cutter people who walk around like robots or puppets being “controlled” by a master. I don’t have favorites–that’s a huge no-no in grandparenting–but it doesn’t mean that I don’t pick up on the funny little things they say…or in this case, endearing.

When our youngest lil ga Siss–as her parents lovingly nicknamed her–began talking I noticed that often she purposely would (still does) walk to one of her parents, look at me or my husband, and say in as much as an empathic voice a two year old can muster “that’s my momma”…”that’s my daddy”….It was precious to hear the first time and it still grabs at my heartstrings every time she goes through her lil spiel…usually accompanied by patting their shoulder or leg depending on being held or her desire to be “close”.

Her practice of making everyone around her know “who” these important people are in her life is priceless. From the time she was born, her parents have made sure she’s loved, protected, challenged, disciplined, and taught along each stage of development. Watching her learn and develop has been pure joy and thus, has me reflecting on the relationship between me and my Heavenly Father.

Psalm 71:5 says “For You are my hope; O Lord God, YOU are my trust AND the source of my confidence from youth”.

Like our son and daughter in law who have been entrusted with Mylah’s care…my Heavenly Father is over me…He surrounds me with good things. He loves me unconditionally. He has protected me in the past and I trust He will continue to do so for many more years. Even though it has been hard at times, He disciplined me…along with life lessons taught through people or scripture. I like to believe that He is well pleased with me, even on my worst days.

I wish–like little Siss–that I could lovingly pat my Father on the shoulder or sit on His lap while whispering “that’s my Daddy” as people around me gaze at us with love in their hearts, too…the same kind of love that swells inside me every single time Siss assures herself and onlookers exactly WHO her daddy and momma are….

No, I can’t physically “touch” God in a way that points or tells people who He is to me…but thankfully, with creative writing…with words and actions I CAN accomplish showing off my Daddy….giving Him praise for everything He has done for me, for my family, for friends. Like little Siss who is growing through the various stages of childhood that will usher her into being an awesome adult, I am being transformed from glory to glory as I gain deeper understanding and love for my Heavenly Father.

So, come with me to a family gathering. We are all standing around. Laughter fills the air…aromas of party food float through the room…God’s presence takes over every activity and conversation until it’s  quietly interrupted by a gentle whisper from someone in the room…”that’s my Daddy”. And we all look to see “Who” that precious person is….

Here we are, ready and waiting for the walk to begin.

If only I could crawl into the mind of an almost four year old…to hear and see how their growing brains are computing information…images…hearing conversations and lessons from parents, caregivers, etc. Oh to imagine the wonders I would behold were that possible. Alas, as fun as that adventure would be for me, any delight of my own discoveries relies on what my grandchildren have to say as they grow…mature…go on adventures through day trips…vacations…reading books….listening to stories.

Recently, my husband and I joined our son’s family–which consists of his beautiful wife and their two children, Jacks–age 3, almost 4–and Mylah, “Siss”, as she’s affectionately called, age 2, for the 2022 Step Out Diabetes Walk which was held at Detroit’s beautiful Belle Isle. Sunday morning greeted us with glorious blue skies adorned with puffy clouds, surrounded by full sunshine. Situated along the Detroit River not far from the Renaissance Center, we caught a cool breeze every once in a while, just enough to refresh us from the rays of the sun.

Our “walk” began at 10 am and at a pace which included our son pushing the kids in the stroller, we made the three miles in just over an hour. Cold drinks and sandwiches were ready for us to refuel and rest before our drive back home.

As we walked to our cars, lil Jack–who was holding onto his momma’s hand–looked up at her, confidently explaining to her that “we are going to have a rainbow”. I don’t remember exactly how she responded to him but again, he told her “we’re going to have a rainbow…they come out on Friday and Saturday”.  I asked him if he’d ever heard a story from the Bible that talked about rainbows. He hadn’t yet (I encouraged him to have momma or daddy read that story to him from his children’s Bible….

I chuckled at his matter of fact confidence that “we would have a rainbow”. This belief–coming from a mind that is growing faster than the speed of light in my humble opinion–reminded me of “why” we see rainbows. They appear in the eastern skies after a pretty big rainstorm, when the sun comes back from behind dark clouds and its prism of colors create an arched image of magnificent beauty…stretching from end to end…glistening high into the heavens. 

A quick internet search explains the phenomena of a rainbow: 

A rainbow only happens when the sunlight is coming from behind and is low in the sky. As the sunlight shines into a curtain of raindrops in the air in front of you, only one color from each droplet will refract at the exact angle necessary to directly reach your eye.

Greater than any scientific explanation for a rainbow is the reasoning found in scripture:

God created the rainbow as a reminder that he will never flood the whole earth again. But, the rainbow is also a symbol of God’s unbelievable love for us. He chose to rescue Noah from the flood, and he chose to rescue all of us from sin when he sent Jesus. Even when we really mess up, God’s love is still there.

I love how our grandson’s mind is thinking, reasoning, believing how things in God’s creation “operate”. Maybe he saw a rainbow on a Friday or a Saturday, and like everything else he’s experienced in his short time, he remembers it without any difficulty.

I also love that our grandchildren are learning about God from their parents who read to them….pray with them….take them to church….surround them with experiences connected to the beauty of nature.

I love that indeed, rainbows happen on Fridays and Saturdays according to Jacks, but I look forward to the days when he–and the other grandchildren–hear the story of Noah…the flood…the rainbow….God’s promise to never destroy us with water again…always displaying his love for us…not only on Fridays or Saturdays, either…but every day…every moment. 

Cool…sometimes very cold water…fills our small pool for 

hot summer days. 

Pools & Patience

Combine a hot day in mid August with a small kiddie swimming pool and a perfect spot for conversation can take place when a grandmother is willing to sit in the somewhat frigid water to “play” with a granddaughter…..a child whose love language (one of them)  is “spending time”…so, while her younger brother napped, we played in the pool recently, which in our case, is a two level blow up style, large enough for several small children who merely want to splash and get cooled off under a hot sticky day. I didn’t mind the chance to don a pair of shorts and tank top so I, too, could soak up some “end of the summer sunshine” that will soon fade to cooler temperatures.

In the midst of “gramma, wanna see something?” and “gramma, look what I can do” our granddaughter decided she’d try a new “move”...plugged her nose…went under water and spun her body around as quickly as the air in her lungs allowed…coming up with a splash, eyes closed, fingers tightly holding her nostrils shut. “Did you see that!?” I sure did…I think I counted three full turns and complimented her for such a feat in the shallow waters. She wasn’t exactly thrilled with my compliment or her “move”…”Gramma, I didn’t do very well”….”Well, honey”, I replied, “you need to be patient while you practice. You’ll do better each time”.

She wrinkled her face responding “We talked about patience in KidMin. It didn’t work for me”.  (Laughter filled my body from head to toe)

“Oh baby girl….life will give you many more opportunities to learn patience”….

“Preach the word. Be ready to do it whether it is convenient or inconvenient. Correct, confront, and encourage with patience and instruction.” 2 Timothy 4:2

Indeed, patience takes a long time. At age 7 our granddaughter believed she had failed to put this wonderful virtue into practice. I can feel her anguish. At age 68 there are days I don’t want to hear the word either….whether it’s from a sermon message or a component of a daily devotional. “Waiting” is not on my top ten list of character traits…positive ones, that is. But, in the midst of my willingness to admit this character flaw, I’m also willing to acknowledge the ability to surrender my anxious thoughts and actions to God…allow Him to control, lead and guide me….to ‘encourage (me) with patience and instruction’….especially on my hardest of days…

As our granddaughter grows, we’ll need a bigger pool. I’m pretty certain she will continue to work on her “moves”…going deeper and longer under the water as depths will permit..lungs growing with greater strength…I’ll keep encouraging her as I sit near her….watching and listening to her squeals of delight….learning life lessons from her…and hopefully pass a few of my own along to her…all under the sun on a hot summer day…cooled by a small kiddie pool and  gleaning refreshment from God’s Word. Together we will “wait” for patience to be built deeper into our spirits…eyes wide open to see the results….lungs expanding to breathe in the rewards from all our hard diligence and  practice….

Where I grew up in Saginaw, the Tittabawessee River, depending on its twists and turns winding through various counties in the lower peninsula of Michigan, was and remains a beautiful part of nature.  Hidden by trees along its riverbank, the river was south of my childhood home, well within walking distance for kids. I seldom went to the river because my mother wasn’t keen on the idea. Getting there meant treading through a swamp along Mr. Rader’s farmland….or walking through tall overgrown grasses at an abandoned airfield to the west of the swamp…or along the edge of Mr. Rader’s wheat field which he frowned upon greatly. So, I think I only went out to the river in “our neck of the woods a couple of times”. Now, my brothers and neighborhood boys? That’s a different story. Boys being boys, going to the river to “spear” or “catch” fish with poles was a summertime sport. Their goal was to see how many carp fish they could snag ….careful to handle and throw back into the murky waters created in the 60s by toxic chemicals spilled into it by Dow Chemical until clean up efforts began with the corporation joining those efforts….but’s that’s the not the focal point of today’s blog.  I want to talk more about those carp.

Not a particularly pretty looking fish, part of my childhood experiences regarding this fish was being told “they aren’t fit to eat”….”they are bottom feeders”….”they are nasty”…looking at a few sites online reveals contrary facts challenging my childhood beliefs….that some countries actually eat carp as part of their cuisine…that the meat of the fish is moist and flaky. Which leads me to a childhood memory I’ve not forgotten.

Dad and I were sitting on our front porch on a hot sticky summer evening after dinner. The sun hadn’t set yet and as we were enjoying each other’s company a couple of neighborhood boys strolled by, each with a string of those carp over their shoulders. As I watched them…said our hellos…I suddenly heard all the familiar phrases in my head that dad and mom would say about the river and its carp…dirty, nasty, not fit to eat….I looked up at my dad and asked, “do you think they’re going to actually eat those!?”  In his gentle manner that taught me so many life lessons, he merely replied, “honey, those fish may be their only meal today.” Hmm. Seems maybe dad knew more about their families’ economic situation than a seven year old…no judgment. No admonishment telling them to throw the fish in the trash. 

I don’t know why this childhood memory surfaced today. Maybe it’s because now, at age 68, living in the 2000s, news headlines are reporting global food shortages. Our local resources that help families with food and pantry items are amping up their voices to fill needs beyond their shelves’ inventory….grocery prices have climbed significantly since late spring…farm production costs have skyrocketed…more folks are planting gardens and looking for ways to provide daily meals, ourselves included although we are not heavily burdened by the current economy. We are blessed….

Back to the carp….as much as I don’t care to trust that eating a carp is good cuisine…it’s great to write that since my childhood, efforts to clean the river have paid off. Years of hard work have reduced the level of toxins…the river actually freezes in some areas…and ice fishing competitions are now part of winter activities in my home city. Other fish are filling the waters….revitalization is happening….the carp still remain for “catch and release” or maybe a meal? I’m not in any big hurry to find out, but I’m grateful the river has been reclaimed and is being restored to original beauty…something everything in Creation deserves.

This photo doesn’t say which part of the river we are looking at; you can see the banks are lined with snow and patches of ice float on the water under the sun. In the 90s, my office was located in a building that sat on the riverbank. In the spring, we actually went outside to watch and listen as the ice broke in late spring, pushing huge ice chunks along the water’s flow. The power of the river and the sounds it made was fascinating, a most welcome sight to behold. And, once in awhile, the forces of the ice actually pushed a carp or two up above the water for a moment of flight in mid air, landing back in the chilly water to continue the ride out to the Saginaw Bay.

Last week–outside our small bathroom window–I heard quite the commotion at our lone bird feeder that is suspended by a shepherd’s crook type pole. The familiar chatter told me it was a blue jay. Sure enough, a large male was jockeying for his position at the feeder…maneuvering his body in all sorts of contorted moves that made me cringe merely watching him….at one point he had his feet firmly gripped to the pole trying not to slide down like a firefighter answering the ringing bell in a firehouse! It didn’t help that a night of hard rain had left the pole pretty wet. Endurance and fortitude paid off for our determined visitor and he was able to grab some seed in his beak before flying away. The flurry of action took less than a minute for him to accomplish enjoying a morning meal and gave me an image of my own antics seeking daily nourishment….

Psalm 34:8 says “Taste and see that the LORD is good. How happy is the person who takes refuge in Him!” (Christian Standard Bible)

My morning ritual includes rolling out of a cozy bed about 7:30 am…stretch and yawn….use the bathroom and then shuffle my way to the kitchen where hot coffee awaits me (thank you to an early riser husband)…settle into my recliner by our living room window…opened if the temperatures allow…kick back with open Bible and current devotional and begin my day, reading and writing in between sips of my coffee, which by the way, is always black with a splash of cinnamon….poured into a mug that has an inspirational verse on it or is tied to special holidays and seasons…

As I read. As I write. As I meditate, I often think of my fine feathered friends that come to our feeder every morning and throughout the day, rain or shine. These beautiful little creatures have come to rely on our willingness and ability to fill the feeder. They’re clever enough now to squawk like crazy when it’s empty, chewing us out for being negligent. I’ve witnessed little brawls on the feeding posts attached to the feeder along with some birds finding seed that has dropped to the ground. I’ve also noticed that one or two birds seem to become “watchmen” on the rail…their little heads turning to and fro….left to right…looking out for any enemy that might be lurking…namely the neighbor’s cat who visits sometimes….the chickens and ducks from next door who wander over, too. Somehow, our resident chipmunk doesn’t bother them. He’s happy to gather the seed they drop on the deck.

Snuggled safely into my recliner I am pursuing Psalm 34:8. I’m tasting and seeing the goodness of the Lord…His daily provision for our family is bountiful. Vegetable plants we placed in the dirt this past spring are growing nicely, producing slowly but surely. Income for us remains steady and sure…bills are being paid….prayers ebb and flow for friends…their family members…our own family….watchman types of prayer for my community, nation and world. Indeed, I can say that MOST of the time, I am happy in the Lord because I DO take refuge in HIM….

Like our feathered friends who are counting on us for daily seeds in that plastic cylinder…I am relying on God for my own needs..nourishment…encouragement…and renewed hope. LIke that blue jay fighting like crazy to hang on to the pole, I’m clinging tight to God’s Word and His promises…. Lord knows, in a world full of chaos, I…we…. all need what only He offers to those who have put their trust in Him. To ward off enemies that try to sneak up on us, He sends angels to defend and protect. He whispers in my ears and spirit little warnings, much like our tiny birds chirping signals to their friends–”danger, danger”. 

A blue jay clinging to a slippery pole is a good reminder for me to hold tight while pursuing what I’m in search of–peace, hope, nourishment, protection. The small choir of other birds chirping whether they are begging for food or sending out warning signals reminds me to surround myself with friends who have my back. Afterall, no one wants to be the victim of a sneak attack from a sneaky neighborhood cat….or lose their place at the feeder…which in my case, is the Word of God. 

A question is that part of my daily prayer journal is this: What’s happening in your life?

I must admit, it’s been difficult to write a different answer each day because if I’m being honest, most of my days are a lot alike. I get up at the same time each morning, usually about 7:30. After grabbing my first mug of coffee I make my way to the living room and settle into my recliner and get my Bible, journal and pen, cozying up with my devotion which is on an application downloaded to my phone. After finishing my devotional and writing out my prayers, any light chores that need to be done begin. On Mondays I work as a volunteer in my church office for about three hours. Then it’s back home until 3:30 when a small group of us do strength training together.

Tuesdays are dedicated to preparing for our weekly Celebrate Recovery meeting and writing my blog if I’m not bogged down with a “to do” list. 

Wednesday through the weekend are pretty much wide open to do laundry, perform light cleaning, get in two more workout sessions and go on errands when necessary.

I often worry that my life is mundane, boring, same-o same-o until I take a few minutes to reflect on the goodness I am surrounded with every day. 

Another portion in my journal is “Thank you for…..” Ah, a gratitude column. This is one that can also seem trite, however, when I remember that every good gift comes from “above”–my heavenly Father–I’m able to thank him for night’s rest…some people don’t have a safe, warm or cool, bed to sleep…my mind has wandered to displaced families in Ukraine…

I can thank God for daily provision. Hot coffee, electricity to prepare meals and right now, cool our home in the temperatures that July and August give us here in Michigan…finances to pay our utilities and other obligations….water to quench my thirst and wash away grime and sweat…wash our clothes–oh, my, sometimes I ponder just how many clothes we have…there’s people in countries who don’t have a closet full of shirts…dresses…pants…bare feet carrying heavy buckets of water for preparing meals and washing what clothes they DO have in the bank of a river.

At the top of my gratitude list is my gratefulness that our four grandchildren are being taught about God. They are learning to pray. Four year old Jacks says “thank you for our blessin’s” (our son says it’s as though he is suddenly from the south….7 year old Macklynn addresses God as “Father Jesus” and proceeds to ask that He give her family and friends as “amazing day”. Three year old Coby mutters prayers in his own toddler language and always applauds with his “yay” which is his current amen…we haven’t heard two year old Mylah’s prayers yet, but we know they are inside her and she’s a willing participant at meals and bedtime. 

So, it happens to be Wednesday morning. Monday and Tuesday are behind me, with a lot that has been accomplished and more “to do”. Laundry is in the dryer. Remnants of dirty dishes and cookware from food preparation on Tuesday are washed. A yummy variety of vegetables have been roasted to enjoy for a couple of lunches this week. Our bed is made and clean towels hung in the bathrooms.

So, what’s happening in my life? Lots of good things that don’t have to be elaborate trips to exotic places or going to a job that could be a drudge. No, I’m right where I desire to be, in our home, enjoying the fruit of working a lot of years for someone else, now employing my gifts and talents for Kingdom work…for the benefit of our home and family….reading, cleaning–ALL the “mom jobs” and waiting for  “blessins”’ big and small, for EVERY good gift is from Above.

As I scroll social media….as I listen to the daily news…I’ve arrived at this conclusion: We all need some “heart & brain medication. What do I mean by that?

I love how the Aramaic Bible in Plain English states this command from Jesus:

“’And you shall love THE LORD JEHOVAH your God with your whole heart and with your entire soul and with your entire mind and with all your power.’ This is the first commandment”

So, how does “heart and brain medication” factor into today’s thoughts? Recently, our 3 ½ year old grandson was shopping with his dad and walked by a display of medications. He told his dad “We need heart brain medication daddy”. Our son looked at the packages and made an immediate correction. “Bubba”, he responded. “That’s heartburn medicine; I’m pretty sure we don’t need that”. Later in the week our son sent me a text message describing the situation that made me laugh and make note of at the same time, in a contemplative kind of manner…noting to myself our grandson’s observation is a great lesson for me and maybe you. 

My current Bible app devotion is taking me through a daily question: Choosing Each Day, God or Self? Seems pretty accurate that our culture is living in a state of “it’s all about me”, wrapping ourselves in selfies to post on social media…making arguments in print for what WE deem is good and right….some folks attending protests waving banners and homemade signs to proclaim our stance on social justice topics…taking up arguments and debates–that from where I’m sitting–only exhaust inner strength and peace. Don’t get me wrong, there’s a time and place to defend what is good and right. But here’s the rub. Consider Isaiah 5:20.

Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, and put light for darkness and darkness for light, and put bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter!

Here’s a second rub. WHO gets to define what is evil?  And defining what is good? I know how I would do so, but I’m fully aware when I do so I’m not in absolute agreement from everyone who would read my definitions. Because a variety of opinions and mindsets exist in our culture, I truly believe we are living in days where we all need a good dose of “Heart and Brain Medicine”…one produced by a willingness to read scripture and have God teach and speak His truth to us, rather than relying on our own thoughts and desires or what is popular in our current culture. 

In Celebrate Recovery–a program I have participated in for six years now, our first principle says “Realize I’m not God; I admit that I am powerless to control my tendency to do the wrong thing and that my life is unmanageable.” (drawn from Matthew 5:3a)

And our last principle states “Yield myself to God to be used to bring this Good News to others, both by my example and my words”. (source Matthew 5:10)

Realize. Yield. Two pretty good words for action and self evaluation. Plus, basically, I think our grandson was on to something when he said “we need heart brain medication daddy”….”Father, God, I….my friends and family….my community and the world all need a good dose of Heart and Brain medicine….Amen.”